Novel Bin Chapter 55 - 3.12
[Pupa: Breakmeter 30%. Fatemeter 55%. Yunyu, I will repeat this over and over. Ling Kai is not heartless.]
[But he is a chaotic monster! System, I just don\'t understand. How can someone have little regard for humanity, but still have heart?]
[Pupa: You will learn soon.]
Honestly, Pupa was also unsure whether knowing Ling Kai would help Yunyu realize that the world was not black and white. There were few times when a chaotic evil knew the feeling of love. Ling Kai was in love with Yunyu right now, but Ling Kai was oblivious about his own feelings. Meanwhile, Yunyu… Pupa gave up with this kid.
This kid had a kind heart, but was dense and blind with his sense of justice.
Ling Kai sighed when he saw Ru Lan alertness towards him. Of course, it was logical for Ru Lan to be cautious. But it still hurt him, somehow. He cared for Ru Lan\'s body for two weeks and even went as far as growing plants and raising chicken… well, mutated chicken, so Ru Lan could eat well.
He felt hurt.
Ling Kai took the porridge bowl and stirred it with a spoon, "You should eat first, I\'ve prepared this porridge and meat for you."
Ling Kai took a spoonful of porridge and meat, then tried to spoon fed Ru Lan. Ru Lan was disgusted when he saw the meat. He brushed away Ling Kai\'s wrist and the spoon fell to the ground, "What kind of meat is that? Do you want to feed me with human meat?! Disgusting!"
Ru Lan took the bowl from Ling Kai\'s hand and threw it on the ground, "If you want to kill me, then kill me now! What is the use of this!?"
Ling Kai watched as the bowl of porridge and meat that he worked hard to make slopped on the ground. He made it by looking at a cookbook recipe in this house. Since Ru Lan was a human, he needed proper food for his nutrition. So he learned how to cook like a normal human.
Only for Ru Lan, he did this. But this person didn\'t even feel sympathy towards him.
Ling Kai\'s body trembled as he tried to suppress his anger. He could crush Ru Lan to pulp, he could also skin Ru Lan\'s body until he begged for mercy. But he didn\'t want to. Somehow, he had grown attached to Ru Lan. He didn\'t know the reason, and he didn\'t know what was this feeling in his heart.
But he didn\'t want to lose Ru Lan, no matter what.
Ru Lan was able to move his body after Ling Kai reduced his muscle ache. He stood from the bed, he wanted to leave this place and returned to Duran City as soon as possible. He was worried about Bi He.
Ling Kai held Ru Lan\'s wrist, "You are still recovering."
Ru Lan glared at Ling Kai and punched him in the face. Ling Kai didn\'t feel the punch on his face at all, but he felt that his heart had been crushed.
"What kind of trick you—" Ru Lan stopped talking when something foreign dripped from Ling Kai\'s eyes. Tears started streaming from Ling Kai\'s eyes, he tried to rub it, but the tears didn\'t stop.
"What is this water coming out of my eyes?"
And then, Ling Kai clenched his heart. He looked up at Ru Lan who was stunned, "Why is it so painful here?"
[System…. What is happening to him…]
[Pupa: Are you blind or what? He is heartbroken! His Fatemeter is already 55%. He is already in love with you. What would you feel if Han Ye punched you in the face?]
[If Han Ye punched me in the face… I will definitely cry…]
Yunyu watched Ling Kai who tried to rub his tears, but the tears didn\'t stop falling. Somehow, Yunyu felt guilty. He didn\'t expect that the ruthless monster could cry pitifully. Yunyu finally yielded and he kneeled in front of Ling Kai. He brushed Ling Kai\'s tears gently with his thumbs.
"Don\'t cry…"
Ling Kai was born without memory, and he had just discovered various emotions after he met Ru Lan. He knew that people cried when they were desperate to save their life, but this emotion was the first time for him.
Turned out, sadness was more painful than what he imagined.
All he wanted right now was to hug Ru Lan, his instinct told him that he would feel better after he hugged Ru Lan, and he did just that.
Ling Kai hugged Ru Lan tightly, his hand wrapped around Ru Lan\'s waist and he rested his body on Ru Lan.
"Ru Lan, do you hate me that much?" Ling Kai asked, "If I\'m not the zombie king, do you still hate me that much?"
"…"
Yunyu didn\'t understand either. He felt that, based on the world background, he should be hating this monster called Ling Kai. But when he listened to what Ling Kai said, if he was not the zombie king, would Yunyu or Ru Lan still hate him that much?
"I turned into a zombie without memory at all. I don\'t know my purpose in this world. I\'m just trying to survive alone in the apocalypse as a regular zombie with consciousness, and those people with abilities tried to kill me for their amusement."
"Am I wrong if I fight back? I also want to survive, so I killed them all…"
"Ru Lan… is there no way for me to get your sympathy?"
Yunyu didn\'t know what to say anymore. He seemed to forget one thing because he hated Ling Kai. He forgot that Ling Kai was born as a zombie king without memory, and without anyone who guided him in this world. He survived through the harsh world of apocalypse, and he was the product of violence.
[System…]
[Pupa: You\'ve finally learned something?]
[I don\'t know what to feel about this. I feel conflicted. I hate Ling Kai for playing around with human\'s life. But at the same time, I can see his reason…]
[Pupa: The world is not black and white. What Ling Kai did to all his victims are nasty, but that is his way to survive, and he knows no other way.]
[Pupa: You should know that, by filling Fatemeter of the master of the world, you are also helping them to be a better person… Just don\'t be stupid and ruin their life like what you did with Ronghui.]
Yunyu returned Ling Kai\'s hug. He gently embraced Ling Kai despite his conflicted emotion.
Feeling the gentle embrace of Ru Lan, Ling Kai tightened his hug, "Ru Lan, will you give me a chance?"
Yunyu sighed, he wanted to personally say this to Ling Kai, not as Ru Lan, "Ling Kai, I\'m sorry for being ignorant. Thank you for taking care of me."
[Pupa: Ding! Fatemeter increases to 70%.]